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Ⅰ AtmazlAghA mamAnupayuktA kintvahaM prabhO rdarzanAdEzAnAm AkhyAnaM kathayituM pravarttE|
Ⅱ itazcaturdazavatsarEbhyaH pUrvvaM mayA paricita EkO janastRtIyaM svargamanIyata, sa sazarIrENa niHzarIrENa vA tat sthAnamanIyata tadahaM na jAnAmi kintvIzvarO jAnAti|
Ⅲ sa mAnavaH svargaM nItaH san akathyAni marttyavAgatItAni ca vAkyAni zrutavAn|
Ⅳ kintu tadAnIM sa sazarIrO niHzarIrO vAsIt tanmayA na jnjAyatE tad IzvarENaiva jnjAyatE|
Ⅴ tamadhyahaM zlAghiSyE mAmadhi nAnyEna kEnacid viSayENa zlAghiSyE kEvalaM svadaurbbalyEna zlAghiSyE|
Ⅵ yadyaham AtmazlAghAM karttum icchEyaM tathApi nirbbOdha iva na bhaviSyAmi yataH satyamEva kathayiSyAmi, kintu lOkA mAM yAdRzaM pazyanti mama vAkyaM zrutvA vA yAdRzaM mAM manyatE tasmAt zrESThaM mAM yanna gaNayanti tadarthamahaM tatO viraMsyAmi|
Ⅶ aparam utkRSTadarzanaprAptitO yadaham AtmAbhimAnI na bhavAmi tadarthaM zarIravEdhakam EkaM zUlaM mahyam adAyi tat madIyAtmAbhimAnanivAraNArthaM mama tAPayitA zayatAnO dUtaH|
Ⅷ mattastasya prasthAnaM yAcitumahaM tristamadhi prabhumuddizya prArthanAM kRtavAn|
Ⅸ tataH sa mAmuktavAn mamAnugrahastava sarvvasAdhakaH, yatO daurbbalyAt mama zaktiH pUrNatAM gacchatIti| ataH khrISTasya zakti ryanmAm Azrayati tadarthaM svadaurbbalyEna mama zlAghanaM sukhadaM|
Ⅹ tasmAt khrISTahEtO rdaurbbalyanindAdaridratAvipakSatAkaSTAdiSu santuSyAmyahaM| yadAhaM durbbalO'smi tadaiva sabalO bhavAmi|
Ⅺ EtEnAtmazlAghanEnAhaM nirbbOdha ivAbhavaM kintu yUyaM tasya kAraNaM yatO mama prazaMsA yuSmAbhirEva karttavyAsIt| yadyapyam agaNyO bhavEyaM tathApi mukhyatamEbhyaH prEritEbhyaH kEnApi prakArENa nAhaM nyUnO'smi|
Ⅻ sarvvathAdbhutakriyAzaktilakSaNaiH prEritasya cihnAni yuSmAkaM madhyE sadhairyyaM mayA prakAzitAni|
ⅩⅢ mama pAlanArthaM yUyaM mayA bhArAkrAntA nAbhavataitad EkaM nyUnatvaM vinAparAbhyaH samitibhyO yuSmAkaM kiM nyUnatvaM jAtaM? anEna mama dOSaM kSamadhvaM|
ⅩⅣ pazyata tRtIyavAraM yuुSmatsamIpaM gantumudyatO'smi tatrApyahaM yuSmAn bhArAkrAntAn na kariSyAmi| yuSmAkaM sampattimahaM na mRgayE kintu yuSmAnEva, yataH pitrOH kRtE santAnAnAM dhanasanjcayO'nupayuktaH kintu santAnAnAM kRtE pitrO rdhanasanjcaya upayuktaH|
ⅩⅤ aparanjca yuSmAsu bahu prIyamANO'pyahaM yadi yuSmattO'lpaM prama labhE tathApi yuSmAkaM prANarakSArthaM sAnandaM bahu vyayaM sarvvavyayanjca kariSyAmi|
ⅩⅥ yUyaM mayA kinjcidapi na bhArAkrAntA iti satyaM, kintvahaM dhUrttaH san chalEna yuSmAn vanjcitavAn Etat kiM kEnacid vaktavyaM?
ⅩⅦ yuSmatsamIpaM mayA yE lOkAH prahitAstESAmEkEna kiM mama kO'pyarthalAbhO jAtaH?
ⅩⅧ ahaM tItaM vinIya tEna sArddhaM bhrAtaramEkaM prESitavAn yuSmattastItEna kim arthO labdhaH? Ekasmin bhAva Ekasya padacihnESu cAvAM kiM na caritavantau?
ⅩⅨ yuSmAkaM samIpE vayaM puna rdOSakSAlanakathAM kathayAma iti kiM budhyadhvE? hE priyatamAH, yuSmAkaM niSThArthaM vayamIzvarasya samakSaM khrISTEna sarvvANyEtAni kathayAmaH|
ⅩⅩ ahaM yadAgamiSyAmi, tadA yuSmAn yAdRzAn draSTuM nEcchAmi tAdRzAn drakSyAmi, yUyamapi mAM yAdRzaM draSTuM nEcchatha tAdRzaM drakSyatha, yuSmanmadhyE vivAda IrSyA krOdhO vipakSatA parApavAdaH karNEjapanaM darpaH kalahazcaitE bhaviSyanti;
ⅩⅪ tEnAhaM yuSmatsamIpaM punarAgatya madIyEzvarENa namayiSyE, pUrvvaM kRtapApAn lOkAn svIyAzucitAvEzyAgamanalampaTatAcaraNAd anutApam akRtavantO dRSTvA ca tAnadhi mama zOkO janiSyata iti bibhEmi|